I’ve started to physically feel emotional things, and in this have become emotionally stable, or, emotionaless.

Have you ever felt physically hurt by a tone of voice, or if someone says your name in an angry manner when you’re not expecting it, or maybe you are, but it sends shivers and pain throughout you and a lump in your throat grows, but you don’t feel upset or any emotions at all, really- it’s just that emotions have turned into physical things instead of soulful things- so that you can keep a calm composure or a smile on your face, and pretend that voices aren’t beating you up? And, if you sit really still, you feel yourself floating out side of your body, but not too far- like it’s attached somehow, glued, or something of the sort? Or, like you’re in jello, and slowly sinking into it, and it is alive, and has a pulse? Oh gosh… >_< I need to sleep. 2nd day w/ out sleeping, and, Adderall isn’t making me sane right now- just keeps me awake. My body feels the things it does when it’s tired, but the part of me that tells me to sleep is wide awake. Goodness gracious.

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